(Trigger warning for Suicide and Depression)
Sixteen-year-old physics nerd Aysel is obsessed with plotting her own death. With a mother who can barely look at her without wincing, classmates who whisper behind her back, and a father whose violent crime rocked her small town, Aysel is ready to turn her potential energy into nothingness.
There’s only one problem: she’s not sure she has the courage to do it alone. But once she discovers a website with a section called Suicide Partners, Aysel’s convinced she’s found her solution: a teen boy with the username FrozenRobot (aka Roman) who’s haunted by a family tragedy is looking for a partner.
Even though Aysel and Roman have nothing in common, they slowly start to fill in each other’s broken lives. But as their suicide pact becomes more concrete, Aysel begins to question whether she really wants to go through with it. Ultimately, she must choose between wanting to die or trying to convince Roman to live so they can discover the potential of their energy together. Except that Roman may not be so easy to convince.
This book is sort of a touchy subject for anyone who has ever thought about, or has lost someone to suicide. Personally, I did have a tough couple years where I didn’t want to go on but now I’m getting better and I’m thankful for everything and everyone I have. now that I’ve said that, lets get into the review.
Aysel is a great example of character development. Coming from a dark place, she feels like everyone she knows is scared of her for something her father did, even if she wants to scream that she is not him. She begins to realize that her life will be more difficult to leave than she thought it would be as the starts thinking about the family she still has. She starts seeing that they really do care about her and are doing their best to show it.
her Suicide partner even has a huge part in making her change her mind. he shows her that its okay to love someone, even when they have bigger flaws than you and that they love her just as much. they will stitch you together again.
sorry for the short review but it’s late and I’m dehydrated…